My eldest

Last night, my eldest, was an amazing helper. I was really really impressed with her. She seems to be developing a massive uncontrollable attitude lately as she is now a "Tween" and I am quite stressed about it. Seems like we argue a lot of the time. But I was getting some things done and I gave her task after task after task and there were no dramatic sighs, no plunking the forehead on the door frame, no wingeing or whining. It was awesome! It is so rare to experience this at this stage in her life that I felt so much warmth and love. :)

What a Year!

In 2009, my husband and I had a very very roller coaster year. We re-invested in our lives together and made a commitment to get to know each other in a more meaningful way. We learned so much about each other and we learned while it is hard to connect, it is so worth it.

We had some date nights, (tee hee), we worked dilligently at communication, we had a weekend getaway and we went away for our 20th wedding anniversary to Alaska! We fell in love all over again and it was not easy at all. It was a lot of work. We had never stopped loving each other. But that whole "being in love" thing is really something to nurture, it can erode easily.

In October we renewed our wedding vows.

I especially love it when he makes me laugh.

Loyalty & Big D, Dirt & Little D

last night... Big D was worried about her friends... she felt they needed her and she was very fearful of standing up and performing in front of a large crowd which she would have to do to be there for them...

and she did it...

and I felt massive waves...

today... Little D came home... looking like a ragamuffin... her hair, her hat, her clothes, her hands... she was dirty all over with sand, dirt and paint... and her eye glowed with happiness... she had a wonderful day... you could tell... it was written all over her...

and I felt massive waves

tonight, my neice and I went to my cousin's play (which was wonderful) and then to a movie... the movie itself was cute at best... but the time with her was special... she and I do not have much time together just the two of us anymore... we connected and really got to talk...

and I felt waves there too...

It has been a pretty wavy 24 hours! :)

mother's day

• listening to my kids whisper as they tried to sneak down the stairs to get me breakfast gave me waves
• them coming up with their lovely gifts they made me gave me waves.
• reading what they had on the cards / posters they made not only gave me waves but made me begin to cry from the overwhelming waves
• then later on... when I was drifting in and out of a blissful day of rest... and snoozing... unheard of the rest of the year... my youngest materialized beside me and said "I love you Mumma" with such pure unconditional love... was amazing
• then she showed up again later and I roused myself enough to see her put a painting on top of the blanket.

ahhhhhhhh.... I felt waves for my babies all day and I do believe I felt waves back from them....

Happy Mother's Day all

last week I felt many waves

there were two specials days / evenings last week that my hubby made me just melt...

wishing there are some this week tooo....

fingers crossed

but you know you can't have waves everyday can you?

in the Van today

Today, in a mini-van, on a long drive looking for Gatorland,

my hubby was driving with my dad beside him.... my two fave men in my life... WAVES

my mom beside me in the back... gabbing and visiting and spending time together... WAVES

my kids, my daughters, in the middle between their parents and grandparents, excited about a special day... WAVES

for that time... the people who mean the most to me in the world were all together... and we were laughing and happy.... WAVES

and then ... a super day together.... :)

Feeling Waves

sometimes, I feel waves...

I love waves... real ones that is... they are one of my most favorite things on the planet... to see, to watch, to listen to, to smell, to feel as they ebb and flow. They are ever changing yet also constant. They are sometimes small and ripply, with nary a foam, and they also can be huge, turbulent and crashing. These of course are the literal ones.

(I am so lucky to live so close to the ocean and so many incredible beaches!)

but the waves that I sometimes feel... are waves of emotion.... more specifically... waves of love.

Yes, I know how incredibly corny and sappy and drippy and sentimental etc. that sounds. I don't have them all the time, I have them rarely actually but when they come, they fill me with joy and appreciation.... so I thought I would share my moments of waves.

I love my family all the time, especially my husband and children, so that is not rare... it is constant and unconditional. The rare feeling of waves is when suddenly, you feel almost overwhelmed by love for someone... you might be staring at them in just a regular moment... or they just did something sweet or funny or caring... or they just look at you a certain way... or perhaps they are not even looking your way but whatever they are doing spurs your love in some way.... are they intent upon their task... or on the phone... perhaps they are not even there with you... they just somehow enter your soul for a moment and out of the blue.... if you give it a moment as the feelings engulf you.... and you let it flow over and back... you will see what I mean... waves!

(don't expect frequent posts eh? as I mentioned they are rare)

And I thought I would wish you all your very own waves.